I hope I don't sound callous but my Mum has been dying for over 4 years and I'm exhausted by it. That is to say she's had various 6 month and 3 month calls over this period and then times when estimates go as far as a year. Of course her suffering is massive, cancer is shutting her down very very slowly but surely but I sometimes feel angry and resentful. Turning up for her through covid, for all the broken bones from falls when she refused to leave home, when the 'deadlines' were short, finding a care home, selling her house rammed with stuff, have all contributed to chronic fatigue but still I need to find a way to do this ending with her. I have sisters and they feel the same. And perhaps it doesn't help that she was an abusive parent. I'm very grateful Ive had time to make my peace with all that but it's awful that I feel jealous when I hear of people losing a parent within a year. Does anyone have any experience of this, or anything encouraging to say. My Dad had a 10 year illness too. Though I was overseas during this. Which is another reason I feel I need to keep turning up now, despite my own health. It's good to just write this out, so thanks already )))
SNP and Greens end coalition deal
Scottish political mess. Is Devolution working?