Hi sorry just having a real sad day,and have felt weepy most of it.If you have ready my previous posts i lost my dad in oct,i am struggling as i am trying to sort out his business,haven't even started probate yet,support mum and live with the constant hate for my sister who lives with mum.My sister again last week did not speak to mum for 9 days after another screaming match over my late dads car she wants it mum says all her memories are with dad in that car,it is now decided it will be kept until the first anniversary then sold and money shared with my and my sister and that was mums choice,because after my sisters 4th meltdown since dad has gone i said i don't want her to have it why should she her and dad didn't even get on so she has backed down for the minute on that,but she as mum says bickers with her all day she is very controlling and mum just wants a quiet life she hates fights but my sister is now speaking again to mum so it goes for how long,it just gets me down her and i do not speak,she stays out of the way when i am there,but all day she is in my head along with all i have to sort for her as she said to mum this week get 50 percent of everything never mind we lost our dad and that is my down day,i miss my dad so much,mum and i talk about him all the time i talk with my husband all the time about dad,i go over and over the last weeks of his life nothing makes sense,i can't talk to my 40 year old son about dad yet because my dad loved him so much and it just hurts plus the great grandchildren of my sons age 5 and 3 they will never remember dad,but inside right now i just want to scream but if i let go i will never stop,i can see dad in my head so clearly we were so close and he was my hero.Sorry jumbled message just felt the need to do something.
Good Morning Monday 29th April 2024
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